I have been pretty hard on myself this last week - blame it on hormones or starting a new diet or whatever. And it is at times like this that I have a really hard time grasping God's love for me or the fact that He has good plans for me: "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord. 'Plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you a hope and a future'" (Jeremiah 29:11).
This past week Finn has meandered up and down the emotional spectrum - one day super fussy, one day amazingly happy. Last night when he was happy, I found myself telling him, "Finn, I love you when you are fussy and I love you when you are happy; but I definitely enjoy you more when you're happy!"
And as usual, I couldn't help but relate this to me and God. It hit me that he loves me even when I feel very unlovable and gross and ugly inside and out. Although He very well probably enjoys me more when I choose to trust in His love for me and just RELAX.
I came across this video today and although I have seen it before (many of those who go to church have probably seen it), it had me tearing up today with chills up and down my arm.
God loves me in ways I can't always understand. My faith comes from believing that with my entire heart......and I am still working on dwelling in that perfect faith. If it brings me closer to you, God........chisel away.
I saw them do this same skit years and years ago. We bought the script and I've done this drama myself a few times (one time Laj did it with me). Crazy, huh?!
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