Delight

The other day I was driving to my mom's to pick up Finn. I had only been gone 3 1/2 hours at work, but I could not wait to get to her house and hold my sweet boy again. My thoughts turned to how much I delighted in him. I love it when he smiles, when he cries, when he's awake, when he's sleeping.....I delight and find joy in nearly every little thing he does. This may sound pathetic but there are even mornings when he wakes up at 4 in the morning that I rejoice just because I get to spend another day with him.

So I'm driving, thinking of my sweet boy and how easy he is to delight in.....and I wonder - will I delight in him any less when he is older and isn't this perfect, adorable baby? Will I still delight in him when he is older and his human nature kicks in and he has thoughtless, rude, or inconsiderate moments?  

I hung out with my mom today to celebrate Mother's Day and found myself asking her....."Does your motherly love change when your kids grow up and act in ways that hurt or devastate you?" Having 5 amazingly different children, she is an expert on the subject. 

I told her that being a mom has helped me to better understand the heart of God and how unconditional and overwhelming His love is for us, His children. I told her that from what I understood, babies are easy to love.........but are kids? Are adult children? In essence I was asking, "Does God's love for us change the more we fail Him?"

And she stated simply that she didn't always like us....but she always loved us. She brought up a few examples:

She delighted in Missy when she got the opportunity to see her teach a class in the Air Force and just how good she was at it. 

She delighted in Matthew when he walked her down the aisle to marry Bryan and the strength he had. 

She delighted in Josh when he asked her to take a walk with him while he smoked a cigarette because it was a moment of acceptance for both of them.

***** Edit from my mom***** She read the original blog and sent the following via text message:
"read your blog...very gd....feel bad there r no "delights" 4 u and kiki....i delight so much in u guys....when u perform and it goes beyond perf to amazing ministry....when i see u lovin on sweet finn and being such an incredible mom. Kiki: for being the mom-2-boys-extraordinaire and her selfless past sacrifices for me. thats all for now....need more"

She said that she finds many moments of delight......and that she delights when we simply call her to talk with her. 

And I just realized that it is the same with God. He delights in us when we call on Him. All it takes is for us to come to Him and say His name for Him to be pleased with us - no bells or whistles required. When we pray, He isn't sitting there with His arms crossed waiting for us to prove ourselves worthy before He cracks a smile in our direction. He is eager to love us and does not need encouragement or a reason to do so......He just does. 

Thankful today for my mom and for my Father God - they are a tag team of magnificent measure :)